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Apr. 17th, 2007

A week ago another pregnant girl I know asked me what my biggest ailment was during this pregnancy. I didn't answer her email, but I would have said that it was the fact that my tailbone was locked up, as previously mentioned a zillion times, and that it fucking hurt like hell not to be able to walk properly, especially with a 14 month old who is constantly begging me to pick him up. Well, I was wrong. That wasn't my biggest ailment.

Today I had emergency surgery to remove a large & hardening blood clot inside the wall of my rectum. Yup. Fun stuff. Embarassing to say, because ass stuff is always a giggling matter when you're like 10 years old. It's definitely not funny, I can promise you that. On a pain scale of 1-10 with 10 being the pain of unmedicated labor, it's coming pretty close at about an 8.5/9. It started last week when I REALLY couldn't sit or walk properly anymore, and it felt like shards of razor sharp glass were up my butt. I went to my OB for my regular appt and she sent me immediately to my regular doctor for a referral to the colon and rectal surgeon. The surgeon met with me today and gave me this big speech about how this can occasionally happen to pregnant women due to all the pressure of the baby sitting so low and cutting off blood supply and blah blah blah. He said that out of 15 women he sees for this, he'll only treat MAYBE one of them during pregnancy, because pregnant women bleed a lot more and there's a huge risk of hemmoraging, blah blah blah, so you'll probably have to wait until 6 weeks after delivery before we can even consider doing any kind of procedure...then he examined me, took one look and said "Oh Honey, we need to take care of this TODAY."

I told you it was bad.

I'd say that the worst part was the numbing shots (yes, this is a local anesthesia surgery. For the record, I'm now a HUGE supporter of the idea that NO surgery should ever be performed on you while you're awake O_O), but that was what I said before they wore off. They did hurt like hell though. Eight shots inside my ass of something that hurt like hell. He did warn me that they were going to hurt though. He just kept saying "Whatever you do, DO NOT move." I had to bite my knuckles until they were bleeding, and even that couldn't stop me from screaming out in pain over and over again. Then came the actual surgery part, which only lasted about 15 minutes, but I could feel it, even though it didn't really hurt all that badly at that point. I could feel him giving me my stitches, which was uber creepy. It actually felt fan-fucking-tastic once I was all numbed up. I came home and cleaned up the house for a bit until it started to wear off. The dr warned me that once it wore off I'd be in "considerable pain" for the next week.

So, now it's all worn off, the pain is 10 times worse than it was before the surgery, and I'm throwing up my pain killers because I've never been able to tolerate Vicodin. Which is probably a good thing since Vicodin is supposedly a class D drug (meaning proven fetal risk) once you're full term, which at 38 weeks, I am. It does say class D "at high doses or for prolonged periods of time," neither of which it cares to elaborate on or define any further. I only took one, and I didn't intend to take any more, but the pain is SOOO intense I needed something more than Tylenol. I figured one Vicodin wasn't a high dose or a prolonged period of time. My body cared to differ, and I've been hanging over the toilet for an hour throwing up chunks of the apple I ate to help make it go down easier on my stomach. Fat chance.

If anything can go wrong with me, it will. I've proven that time and time again. I hate this. I hate everything.

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lindsay_love
Apr. 18th, 2007 12:23 pm (UTC)
i'm so sorry love *hugs tightly* "If anything can go wrong with me, it will." that feeling is all too familiar to me as well but it makes the good times that much better. i'm so sorry you're in so much pain and that you can't take much of anything to make it better. i wish i lived closer so i could help you with everything and anything you needed. i love you so much sweetie, try to hang in there.
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